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The Inevitable Turning Point
Tue 6th June 2006
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06th Jun 2006
I feel like being very rude to you Matt, as lovely a guy you are. Shut the fuck up!
You have the whole of your life ahead of you, literally. Just look at me for example: I'm going to be 26 this year. I'm living with my mother and about to be taking a second degree (which is destined to last 7 years), and the prospect of either getting laid or moving out are as unlikely as a new release of Lost coming out in XXX rating with the same cast.
You really need to abstract yourself from the rut you're letting yourself live in. Lets go and take a course in parachuting this summer or something, get that old heart of yours pounding again with excitement, remember what it is like to be alive.
I think you're in a state of anticlimax at the moment, all your achievements you make recently seem flavourless and hence you're in a state of malaise and overall depression. You're looking for excitement in everything even the prospect of being very ill or gas leaking into your house or anything.
But what do I know? I'm so sad I can't even be bothered to chat online anymore ;-)
Give me a buzz if you want to chat, you sound like you need it.
06th Jun 2006
You know where to find me if you want to chat, matey (-:
Cheer up, I'm not saying I've been there, but who knows, maybe I can help?
07th Jun 2006
Blergh - how rubbish :( As per the other comments, if you need a chat then you know my number hon'. Neil has a point, I guess: this is a rubbish place to be stuck in, but who knows where you'll be, or what you'll be doing, three or four years down the line? (Or three or four months!)
But it's gotta be real hard to keep that in mind, where you are at the mo. I certainly wouldn't be!
So basically... for now, remember that things WILL work out in the end, and meanwhile your friends are here for ya. Hugs 'n' sparkly stuff to you...
07th Jun 2006
Damn. Hope you feel better soon - I know this can't help how you feel at the moment though. Still, even if it doesn't work out it is an opportunity for change...
You're an immensely talented guy - you could pull of whatever you choose to do. You can go contract and get rid of some of the monotony, or how about doing some embedded stuff? You like PICs, and as I understand it embedded developers are in high demand.
Anyway, if you've got a day free it'd be cool to meet up. Sun 18th would be awesome in cambridge if you'll be free (its the post-exam getting trashed day) - i can give you a lift if you want.
08th Jun 2006
Hiya Matt. I am so sorry to hear you are feeling no better and that it is causing you to make changes you don't want to make. I know you probably can't see it this way but you have so many things going for you and like Neil said you have your whole life ahead of you. You will get through this and although you might not like it, change is inevitable in life as you know. One day you'll look back and see all the things that you have learned about this part of your life, about yourself and see that with every door that is closed, several more have been opened.